“Life blooms in second chances.”- Faith, So Much More
Synopsis via Goodreads: Love is strange. It comes out of nowhere. There’s no logic to it. It’s not methodical. It’s not scientific. It’s pure emotion and passion. And emotion and passion can be dangerous because they fuel love…and hate.
I’m now a reluctant connoisseur of both—an expert through immersion. I know them intimately.
When I fell in love with Miranda, it was swift and blind. She was the person I’d elevated to mythical status in my head, in my dreams.
Here’s the thing about dreams, they’re smoke.
They’re spun as thoughts until they become something we think we want. Something we think we need.
That was Miranda. She was smoke.
I thought I wanted her. I thought I needed her.
Over time reality crept in and slowly dissected and disemboweled my dreams like a predator, leaving behind a rotting carcass.
Reality can be a fierce bitch.
So can Miranda.
And I can be a fool…
who believes in dreams.
Note from the author: Due to strong language and sexual content, this book is recommended for mature audiences only.
The Brightside duology by Kim Holden was on my list of top reads for 2015, so when I found out about her newest release, I FANGIRLED my heart out! I was SO EXCITED to read more of Holden’s work since I know they are guaranteed to make me FEEL ALL THE FEELS. However, this book was a bit of a let down and I am a little upset because I hate it when my auto-buy authors disappoint. I had such a hard time deciding what to rate this book, but I eventually just went with my gut. Let’s get into this review.
After his wife, Miranda McIntyre, files for divorce and runs off with her boss, Seamus McIntyre moves to a new apartment with his three children in tow to start a new life. But starting over not going to be so simple, especially after Miranda shows up and takes the only thing Seamus has left, his children. Seamus now has to fight like hell to get them back and with a little Faith on his side, he may just find himself ending up with more than he bargained for, which may turn out to be a good thing.
THIS DAMN BOOK AND MY DAMN FEELS! I was NOT expecting this book from Holden and I had to stop while I was reading to check that the author’s name was right. So Much More is A LOT different from Holden’s Brightside duology as it is more dark and ugly and at times, it even made my skin crawl. I give Holden props for stepping up her writing and going in the opposite direction, but I did have some MAJOR issues with this book.
This story is told from the POVs of our three main characters: Miranda, Seamus, and Faith. The POVs also take place throughout the past, present and the future. Let’s first tackle what I didn’t like.
Miranda: I HATE HER AND I WANTED HER TO DIE! Miranda is NOT and unlikable character. She is so much worse. She is cruel and malicious. She is selfish and only cares about being successful. She does whatever she needs to do in order to help herself advance, even if it means hurting her family and I honestly had such a hard time reading her POVs. I can’t believe she would treat her kids like that. I had a major problem with Miranda’s character development because throughout the first half of the book, she is painted to be a COLD-HEARTED, RUTHLESS B!TCH and then everything flips and she all of a sudden wants to be a mom and hopes that her family can forgive her. I wasn’t buying her act. In my opinion, Miranda does not deserve redemption, not after all the sick SH!T she pulled and the whole ‘turning over a new leaf’ rubbed me the wrong way.
There is not necessarily a love triangle in this book since Miranda and Seamus are divorced, but there is an instant connection between Faith and Seamus and I wished that things between these two hadn’t happened so fast because I felt that the relationship was a bit shallow. I mean, they get together at the beginning of the book, but then they are separated and they only reunite when we get closer to the end. It just didn’t feel right to me and I wanted something deeper, something SO MUCH MORE.
Despite my issues, there were some things that I really enjoyed. First off, THE KIDS! OMG, I LOVED Kai, Rory and Kira. Kids in novels are my weakness. They are so hilarious and adorable. I could not! I loved the relationship Seamus had with his children. It broke me apart when they were separated. Those kids didn’t deserve to be put through any of that and it made me RAGE!
I swear, the saving grace for me in this book was Faith. Faith is a bit of a mystery throughout most of the book. The only thing we know about her is that she used to be in foster care and has spent the last few years looking for her birth mom. Faith’s story BROKE ME DOWN! The last 20% of the book focuses on her and her finding out about her past and what happened to her while in foster care. We also find out who her biological mom is and HOLY CRAP, I DIDN’T even see that! I fell down when I read that plot twist, I kid you not! This was the ugliest and darkest part of the book. It was the hardest to read and I couldn’t even breathe at one point because it was SO ROUGH! Once again, I am sobbing ALL THE TEARS over another Holden book.
And of course, I could not forget Holden’s writing. It was beautiful and lyrical and there were so many quotable quotes. I really felt that I would’ve enjoyed this book more if Miranda’s POV wouldn’t have been included and instead was only told from Faith and Seamus’s POV. I get that Holden is trying to show us all the sides of love, even the uglier side, but I just COULD NOT stand Miranda. But it was beautifully written nonetheless and I enjoyed the ending.
Although So Much More will either be a hit or miss for readers, I GUARANTEE you that this book will make you FEEL. From anger to happiness, to rage and heartbreak, this book will make you shed some tears. I’m hoping that Holden’s next book will be more of a hit because I really hate when my auto-buy authors disappoint. IT HURTS MY SOUL!